perk up

You And I Both-Jason Mraz

To The Beat of Our Noisy Hearts-Matt Nathanson

Love For A Child-Jason Mraz

Perfect-Hedley

Undressed-Howie Day

Valentine-Kina Grannis

Okay the list shall end here. Long lists tend to send people to sleep.

come on skinny love, just last the year

It's Sunday. Went to church with Leanne and Steph this morning and came back, just in time to see Lina off. She's been granted the JPA scholarship and will be studying Foundation in Pharmacy at Taylor's Lakeside Campus. Lucky her:) Getting to have a breath of fresh air and all. The campus being somewhat like a mall is a definite plus.

So I got the flu and had a sore throat on Friday night, but now my throat's fully recovered and I'm barely sniffling. Talk about a super strong immune system! Lol joking, my speedy recovery is all thanks to Clarinase and copious amounts of water I've been gulping down since yesterday (One of the lab manuals taught me the word copious. Nice.).

In the midst of the discomfort owing to my very congested nose and irritated throat, I miraculously finished up the Psychology research investigation report yesterday. It was supposed to be an ongoing task done within a period of a month, but my state of health deterred me from going out. So stayed at home I did, and lo and behold! The 10-page report was completed. :) Every cloud has a silver lining indeed. Even falling sick, in my case.

I can't wait for Thursday, but then again I'll dread it even more when the day comes. Cognitive dissonance. Rawr.

tribute to the late mj

I'm not exactly a die-hard fan of his, but his passing was indeed a terrible loss. Particularly so for the generation who grew up listening to him. D: His music, when listened at the right time, can be super uplifting. :)

i'd really like to know

Why is it when you're really distressed by something, you become even more emotional when people come to you and coax you with comforting words? Simple phrases like "Please don't be sad anymore" and/or "Cheer up, please don't cry anymore" have that intangible power to release the imaginary valve that suppresses your gut reactions. Your sobs intensify to an extent like nothing you can even begin to fathom or ever possibly imagine. It's one of life's most overwhelming feelings.

Maybe it's their empathy that touches your already bruised disposition. You realize that you trust them enough, that they are worthy of seeing beyond what you choose to show others. The anguish, fervor, hurt contained within your fragile body rushes out of your system like water gushing out of a broken dam. You do not hold it in any longer. You let down all your defenses and just...cry all the more.

calm me down, calm me down

a multitude of casualties

It's 7.11 on a Tuesday morning and I'm wide awake. This calls for a festivity of sorts. I should make it a point to sleep early earlier every night from now on. It's kinda nice not having to rush like mad every morning and to run to college as if my life depended on it. Haha it may be over-dramatized but as of today, I'd like to be mentally prepared and alert before the first class, not suffering withdrawal symptoms of being dragged out of bed on a rainy morning with the perfect weather for sleeping in.

Everything's so serene outside. There's no sign of life save the trees, occasional passing by of a car or two and I presume, the guard cooped up in the guardhouse. From my room, I have a bird's eye view of the the side entrance to the condo I live in. Fret not, I don't go peering out of the window, studying people that go in and out when I've nothing more productive to do.

The prospect of entering Bio class to someone other than Mr. Varun is immoderately disheartening. Its amplitude is enough to send not only me, I believe, but all his students spiraling into the depths of despondency every time the matter at hand comes to mind. Yeah he's made quite an impression on us. :) It's safe to say that he's the only lecturer that competently connects with students and for that, beyond any doubt, to most, if not all his students, he's earned the recognition of being our favourite lecturer.

Learning is remarkably more enjoyable with him around and now (soon to be), what with his missing in action, the future of our results looks unpromising. Ugh this is making me irrational.

i'm all about them words, over numbers, unencumbered numbered words

The end of this month and beginning of the next is packed with assignments and tests, all of which are, needless to say really, evaluated. For Psychology alone, there's an extended response test tomorrow and a research investigation report due on the 30th. The latter is no easy task, especially for easily distracted people like yours truly. Then there's an investigation for Maths on linear programming in 2 weeks time (which I know shit about), and for English, a task which requires us to write out a speech within an hour. At first blush, the assessment sounds easy but the catch is that we are to draw the link between ideas proposed in famous speeches of the world and the unseen topic which will be given to us on the spot. And for that, in-depth analysis of the world's most popular, influential speeches given by people like Martin Luther King Jr., Nelson Mandela, Aung Sang Suu Kyi and Paul Keating is required. Plus, awareness of what's happening in the world today, an area in dire need of polishing up on my part. Then for Chem, 2 assessments lined up some time the end of this month/the start of July. Lastly for Bio, a DNA-related task due in 2 weeks time.

All this, and the fact that our Bio lecturer is leaving us for good at the end of next week. :( The gravity of it all is just starting to dawn on me. Yeah, somehow it takes hours for something as consequential as this to sink in.

Mr. Varun, Y U LIKE THAT? :(

i can't sleep just yet

I'm so used to everything touchscreen that I sometimes I forget it doesn't apply to my laptop. A few seconds ago I actually thought twice before intending to remove dust from the screen using my finger, wary that I would be navigated to another page. Haha.

We had our second Malaysian Studies lesson today yesterday (it's past midnight), which turned out be a total drag, as expected. It was 3 hours, mind you. 180 minutes of looking at slides and taking in information we've learned before in high school. If only it's possible to self-study this subject. It's practical, considering the fact it's history and all is required is storing of the unchangeable facts and regurgitating them during the exam. But unfortunately an attendance of 80% at the very least is the passport to enter the exam hall on the final day. Sigh.

I have an unexplainable desire to go to a concert with the lovelies.

a good listen

You're a cool breeze and the setting sun. New Year's, the 4th, wrapped into one.

You make me wanna be someone you could look up to.

i should start on math

Amanda is exhibiting signs that can only be justified by modifications in her genetic composition. Hahaha. (Blame all that gene talk until one o' clock earlier this morning for my arriving at a hypothesis this far-fetched).

Signs/Symptoms:

• Calling me a cartoon.
• Wailing and asking why I broke up with her. (Personally, I don't remember ever agreeing to be her partner).
• Sticking her tongue out and awkwardly positioning her hands in a fashion that she claims is tantamount to a sexy pose.
• Attempting to harass me in the midst of my persistence in making sense of gel electrophoresis.
• Posting grandiose Facebook statuses using my account.
• Forcibly engaging me in frivolous debates while slapping moisturizer onto her face. Okay, we shall at least credit her ability to multitask. Pretty impressive for a transgenic organism, don't you think? :D

Disclaimer: I'm glad to have met her in AUSMAT.

so fly

Behold, Yee Ping and I are technically experts on gene cloning now. ;) Haha, that must have sounded a tad bit too overbearing. I'm sorry, we're just so excited to find it much more interesting now that we finally fully grasp it. We spent most of the night piecing information from different sites to get the whole picture and producing an explanation which hopefully will not further confuse our classmates on Thursday, the day of our presentation. It's a rather tedious topic, but we were somehow genuinely enthusiastic in learning more about it and could've managed to finish everything within 2 hours had we not wasted spent time laughing at people explaining gene cloning on YouTube. (In our defense, Bertrand Russell did say that time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time). We find hilarity in individuals telling the world what they know... idiosyncratically. :D

Anyway, I'm sad 'cause there's nothing to munch on now. I ran out of digestive biscuits! :/

Hair,

please grow longer faster.

Love always,

me.

munching on oat krunch

Exam results are back. I'm reasonably pleased with them, taking Maths out of the picture. I'm blown away by the fact that my impression and perception of Maths has completely gone the reverse direction since high school. I used to genuinely enjoy Add Maths back in Lodge, but now the mere thought of maths 3c/3d in college just makes me want to pop in a serotonin pill every time a math test/exam comes around. But I highly doubt the market synthetically manufactures this naturally-occurring chemical, so simply brush aside my irrationality for now. :)

I took a look at Revathi's math 3a/3b evaluation exam paper this afternoon in the midst of studying for a Psychology test (which turned out better than expected) and had to force myself to stop flipping through the pages, lest getting overly-emotional. A single glance at the questions told me it was similar to Add Maths that we've done in Form 5. At that point, Ms. Rosemary's remark, "Dropping maths 3c/3d for maths 3a/3b will be a great relief for those of you having trouble coping with this subject" resonated in my head. She cannot be any more right. Okay, I shall quit claiming that the maths i'm doing now is out-of-this-world brain-torturing. Indeed, it isn't a subject that anyone can get a firm hold of overnight, but how do you put yourself to the test or exercise your fullest potential if not faced with a challenge, right? In retrospect, guess I've made the right choice in selecting this subject. All's good.

Despite the rather popular and plausible interjection among us skeptics students that nobody should bother practising because practice makes perfect and perfection is impossible to be attained, I shall persevere. Perfection is not what we aim for, it's improvement.

Okay, time to put my words into actions.

Ear candy for you :)

Till my next post, bye! x

craving

Right at this very moment, I want nothing more than a bowl of freshly made kolo mee from a hawker stall. I'm salivating just typing this. :/ No, the "Sarawak Kolo Mee" they have here just won't cut it. So far, I've not tried any in KL that does the original taste, aroma, and texture justice. It's been so long since I had real food. And by real food, I mean home-cooked food and those mouth-watering ones from Kuching coffee shops.

I shall bring 12 packets of kolo mee here the next time I go back, which is in 5 weeks. Just so you know, it's sort of like the staple food of Kuchingnites.

I CAN'T EVEN-

the dynamo of volition

Drinking water from the college's water coolers tastes like it's been freshly scooped out of a swimming pool. It smells and tastes like diluted chlorine. Lol, it got Amanda and I worried if they'd stolen the water from the pool at our condo where we live. :D Anyway, hope the water reeks of chlorine only for today, lest more than half the student body have mottled teeth in due time! :o

I'm still in holiday mood. Why is it so difficult to get back to working mode? D:

Oh right, it sucks the fun out of everything. Glad to have figured that out.

On a side note,

*Hands down, you put endorphins to shame.

when sentimental strikes

Suddenly in the mood to search for song covers on Youtube. My iTunes is in dire need of new additions.

for your entertainment

The after-effects of deactivating my Facebook account last Friday has not worn off. My account is all weird now. My status updates are not appearing on my page, I can't 'like' fan pages, I'm not receiving the notifications that I should and who knows what else. Okay I'm not gonna go into details of why I deactivated it in the first place and why I reactivated it yesterday, so don't bother reading further if you've read this far thinking I'm going to explain myself. Haha all I will say is, it was a spur of the moment decision.

Sometimes I wonder if I should just delete the account for good. Everyone has thought about this at some point but none of us are man enough to actually bring ourselves to do it. Wonder why this is so.

How can we claim to detest something that we are constantly guilty of spending much of our free time on?

Lol, maybe it's just me who has to work on putting my words into actions.

I'm so not mentally prepared for college tomorrow.

everyday i'm shufflin

It's Sunday already and it's back to college tomorrow! Gosh, days do feel accelerated when you're on holiday. I overslept and missed church this morning.

It's sooo hot outside. Kills the mood to go anywhere, so now I'm blogging in bed to the countdown on Rickdees. I spend way too much time on this laptop. Which explains my dizzyness when I woke up this morning. It's not healthy, but Modern Family was too addictive to resist! I finished off Season 1 last night early this morning. Does sleeping too much cause the illusion of the room spinning as well? Hmm.

Reasons why a holiday is the best thing next to pizza:

• You don't know what day it is, which is cool 'cause you don't need to know.
• Instead of having breakfast after brushing your teeth which cancels out the first action, you can now brush after breakfast and have a minty breath till lunchtime!
• You can shower and eat at odd hours.
• You can spend the whole day in PJs and/or have your hair resemble that of a mentally deluded woman.
• And the best, no assignments or other college obligations!

frozen moments

Random photos from Kuching :)

after all this time

the story of us

I miss everything about home. Most of all, Mummy, Daddy, Belle, Lyn, Jayne and Jaryl! And the crazy friends still studying in Kuching:)
Omg I can't contain myself! This makes me miss him even more dayummm. Can't believe he's already 8 this year. We grow up so fast. :')

Dude might have been to more places than I have! Haha

jump-start my heart

Gordon and Lina are leaving for Sibu tomorrow so today we acted out our inner kid desires at Lagoon with a few others, 8 of us altogether. They will not be studying in Sunway anymore-they got offered JPA scholarships, Gordon to KBU and Lina to Taylor's Lakeside. (Gasp! Refer to one of my previous posts). Sigh, I'm gonna miss Lina for always being there regardless of circumstance and for being my makan buddy! :) And Gordon with his knack for coming up with the funniest statements and lightening up the mood no matter how serious things are.

Though the rides didn't cause my pulse to race as fast as I would've liked (except for the Tomahawk), today was fun. :) Being chased off the carousel once and out of the water playground twice was embarrassing but hilarious nonetheless.

By the end of the day, we were whacked from screaming for 8 hours on the rides just for the heck of it, so we settled for dinner at KFC, the furthest our legs could take us to. Took the shuttle bus home.

The last thing I vaguely remembered doing upon reaching my room was shoving the clothes on my bed to the chair and plummeting into bed. When I woke up and it was already 11pm. Despite being tired to the bone, it was a day well-spent. :)

digestives

CONVENIENCE STORE DOWNSTAIRS, Y U NO CONVENIENT?

What kind of a store, ironically called the convenience store closes at 11.30 pm, the almost "peak hour" of gurgling intestines? (By experience, I get hungriest around 2am when I'm still up watching series)

HUNGER AND RESTLESSNESS AIN'T A GOOD COMBINATION. PERIOD.

I shall stock up truckloads of food in my room starting tomorrow.

Hahaha. Tumblr expresses it best. :)